This interesting wood piece has been in the Medicine Wheel since it was formed. Some could say it was a cross or maybe an angel. I see it as a phoenix or dragon. Coming up from the Earth, to reform this place, this land. Saw the Hawk yesterday on the way into town. Sitting on a sign, huge, right next to the road. Watching, seeing everything that passed. It was foggy and it was if It was warning "be careful or take care on your journey". And not just the trip into town. We need to take care on this journey we are on; care to pay attention, not to harm, heal ourselves and others, heal the earth. I have been reading and found this one thought that kind of brought me up. We should be sure that it is "true" for self before we proclaim it is. If we don't we can set others on the wrong path. Sometimes in our enthusiasm for new idea we proclaim it as our truth before we know. Too many "truths" can be confusing.

No cards this morning. But a picture. As I walk back and forth to the barn each morning I sometime get lost in thought. I know I probably miss a lot of things by doing that. But as I came back this morning I was thinking about the studies that I have been doing and how I have been working out some anger issues. I realized that a lot of the deep seated anger is gone, replaced by unfounded frustration. Realizing that just "being" is enough sometimes. We don't have to move and shake to receive gifts of Spirit. I looked down and saw the stone on the left. It was sitting up on it's tip. I thought what a nice stone, but kept on walking. It was as if it shouted "Hey, take another look!". So I went back and picked it up and it felt like a "gift". I continued on thinking that was nice, when the stone on the right shouted I mean shouted "Me too!". It is square and kind of crusty (like Jim) the other is round and plump (like me). So they joined another stone I had found in the road a while back. It may be hard to see but it is heart shaped. They join the Earth Healing wand and the Group of Nine. Together perhaps we will heal the Earth. But what gifts! Slowly transforming my anger to healing actions.

This morning walking, I thought I had startled the Hawk. It flew past on my right calling out. I felt regret for not noticing it sooner. As I flowed it's flight it landed in a tree with another Hawk. Well I lost it right there. The dogs didn't know what to do with me. I had called this land "Land of Two Hawks" once before and this is why. After I recovered and fed my kitties and the horses I headed back. Course they were gone, but what a gift, Sun coming up and two Hawks in a tree. So I was curious as to what card I might pull today. And heerree it is!

Soul Retrieval

I feel I am getting it back a little at a time. I relive the loss and pull from it the love and the meaning. The Hawks just reminded me that it is possible to put the pieces back together. So I sent them the Healing Song.

Drew this card this morning before my walk and the Sun was just coming up. Have been smoking my Prayer Pipe every day since December 3rd. So I know that Pachamama loves me. I have been receiving guidance. But the last couple of days had kind of lost focus. So on the way back to the house, saying hello to the Sun some new words came to me for "the Healing Song", the one I sang at the Wheel Ceremony.
"Here in this place, let us heal the Earth. This be our Prayer, this be our Prayer.
Here in this place, let us heal the Waters. This be our Prayer, this be our Prayer.
Here in this place, let us heal the Spirit. This be our Prayer, this be our Prayer.
Here in this place, sending out the Love. This be our Prayer, this be our Prayer."
Sooo Love right back at you Pachamama.

I tried to go to bed early last night. But got up in the dark except for the Medicine Wheel light. No glasses and this is what came out.
When you are all alone on a cold, dark night with a list of "to dos" a mile long. The wind is whistling around the house and the heater keeps coming on. You know you have decisions still to make and not sure what to do. Sleep won't come to a weary mind and you're not sure where to turn. You try to quiet your mind and find some peace late at night. Knowing tomorrow it starts again.
So this morning I draw this card.

So I need to follow my own advice to others. Get balanced, from that place make your decisions. Try to keep it in the flow of that energy you have found in yourself. Do your best that's all you can do.

Here it is again for the last 2 days I have drawn this card. I have been "dueling" with my inner critic over different things. But have come back to tell it we have to be "courageous with our vulnerability". Put what ever it is we are wanting to create out there. If it is wonderful for you personally, it doesn't matter what anyone else thinks. As long as it doesn't negatively impact someone else it is in divine order. When I say courage that is what it takes to be truly vulnerable. But that is how truly magical things can happen. For me these days it has to be about the magic.

Back again. I shared this on facebook this AM
Two doves sitting outside my window on a pecan tree limb. They have connection no words necessary. No talking only feeling each other wing to wing, spirit to spirit. They say doves mate for life and usually when you see one you see two together. When I see only one I wonder what it's story is. Lost mate to a hunter, predator or just age and life. Does the dove remaining live it's life in solitude after having been so close to it's mate? Does it have "feelings" of loneliness, emptiness? Or does it just realize an absence of the other. Wow! all that from just seeing two doves sitting outside my window on a pecan tree limb.