Well the pig got out. I was really upset last evening. The inner critic was running wild. "If the neighbor had just come while he was in." "If I hadn't upset him by giving him food and water." "If the puppie hadn't wanted to play". But as a friend pointed out, "he wanted his freedom more than food and security". Aren't some humans that way, would rather have freedom and live on the edge than be safe. My lesson is I should not try to project my ideas of what is good, I can only live my life the way I feel is right. If others like that they may ask for suggestions but not rules. So Kermit where ever you are (didn't see him this morning) enjoy your free and solitary life. I know I won't get him near the pen again. Pigs are smart, fast and wily.

A raining drippy Sunday, but very warm and happy on the inside. Had a wonderful gathering yesterday. A great friend left me a Howlite crystal, wonderful gift. It must be very powerful because when I went down to the barn there was Kermit the pig right at the opening to the pen I had set up to catch him. I eased up kept the dogs back and he went right in. He realized what he had done I don't think he liked it, but I fed him some sweet feed and hope he stays in till the neighbor can come and get him. I am saving his life, not because he can't survive here, but because I fear there others who would do him ill. So he will have a new home, with food and company. Another thing off my list. Spirit is still with me, showing me the way through the mundane that we all must do, also showing the way to better things and better places to be. By places I mean in the mind so that better places in the physical can be created, manifested, and come to be. Wow! all that from catching Kermit.

No cards today. Busy mind week, so walked out to the Medicine Wheel honoring the path, the directions, and the Altar with tobacco. The Big Oak tree where you can sit and meditate or commune with Spirit, called out "what about me"? So it got a sprinkle too. This is the gift it gave me, for honoring and paying attention. It revealed it's Spirit that lives in it's roots and flows up to the tips of the branches-the message from Mother Earth.

No wander I heard. The message would seem to be "pay attention", all kind of signs will be there. The synchronicity of this journey is a marvel and magic.

Got company coming to go to the cards. Maybe the last time till Monday. How do I go through the weekend? This is the card that came up.

Makes sense go the through the weekend with gratitude for what I have, family, what I am still becoming. We create our reality. It can be a love filled, gratitude filled, peaceful life. Grateful to Pachamama for all Her gifts, with prayer of thanksgiving every night.

Made some kind of major decisions. I had bought a new tractor back end of the year. So I could feed my horses hay and mow weeds. Then I decided one of the focuses of this year to be be more independent with food sources. So now I have a tiller for the tractor. Big organic garden. So the inner critic takes over why are you spending this money do you think you can do this. So that is what I asked the cards this morning.

This is my most favorite card, "are you enacting your sacred trust"? That has become my intent and purpose, to heal this land that I sit on and make it a place of love and nurturing. Hopefully feeding the body and the soul. Let me be the conduit through which the Earth Mother reaches up and the Upper World flows down.

I have a pendant of red jasper. A protective stone, specially of things in the night. It came to me as a Hawk Spirit (haunted is the word they used) servitor pendant. But is has a rather fragile hook and the other day it allowed the stone part to come off. I was able to re-attache it. Had thought about replacing it. But, realized I needed to just pay attention to it and not let it become stretched or bent. Protect it from getting caught and snagged. Much like we do sometimes in everyday life. Also helps me remember how tenuous our "connection" can be to life, Spirit, our true selves. If we are not attentive and protective, given to just letting go of our awareness, we can become "disconnected". So will keep the "little weak connector", realizing how strong it's connection can be.

Finally some different cards. I guess I haven't been getting the message because I kept pulling the same cards.Today I asked about something different. The deck was so excited it sent me two cards. It is pretty clear I need to get rid of some old stuff but need to do it with much love. We all need to do new year cleaning, but I have an inordinate amount. Time to do taxes, clean closets, cabinets, desk drawers all bringing memories and happy/sad thoughts. But like the hummingbird, if I hold it in sweet love it can be good to shed old itchy stuff and become the new person that can be.