I put this on the Star Wheel page on facebook. The words so said what I wanted to say and be.
Words to ponder...

Wherever I lay my eyes, may hope be revived and consciousness settle in.
Wherever I lay my hand, may life generous and abundant circulate anew.
Wherever I go, may happiness come flooding.
Wherever I am seated, may truth show through.
Wherever I reside, may there be Light!
by Bashistya Shivananta
A baby is coming soon, her pigtails may be dark or like this little one blond. I hold the hope she will bring some light to us all. To all a good Wednesday.

Feel like going into a cave and hiding out? How about this one. Saw this picture and have started to visualize in my mind sitting at it's entrance looking out. That is the good thing about this cave,  you can sit at the entrance and see a world of beauty, or go deeper within and see a different beauty; that of you spirit a soul part of you. I have a message, a very small message but one of love and peace and very simple. I am slowly finding my voice, so far just written words. Maybe that is enough.

The days are getting shorter. The dogs still get up at 6 but the sun doesn't till more like 7:30. Walking to the barn to feed the cats in the dark can be a sketchy proposition.

Have been traveling some on the road and in my mind. Will tell you more about my reunion another blog. But my Mom is not well. She is in Hospice care now in a nursing home. She has her feet in both worlds now. Talking of and to her brother and sister that is no longer here. She has no pain now but does not eat or converse. So I talk to her through Spirit and I feel she is OK. I try talking to Jim, sometimes he listens and sometime he doesn't. ;-) But it is a road that we all must travel and one that is not so scary anymore.

Was doing pipe last evening on the front step. I carry my phone everywhere in case my brother calls. But I could clearly hear Spirit say "take the picture". Didn't realize what was there until I downloaded it, The red orbs the tiny gold one on the tree branch and the rays coming off the opening into the vortex. So much there to ponder, into the West introspection, goals, death, rebirth. I know I am being told to "get on with it". The answers are there, just have to be present.

My grand daughter calls me Spider Woman. There are a lot of cob webs around. Perhaps she is right. But as I set here in front of the computer, looking I guess, for answers a little spider has been coming down it's thread right in front of the screen. Some would say "too many spiders". But as I gently move the thread over to safety, I have the feeling it is telling me to "get on with things".

I am coming to the realization that for 68 years I have maybe not been the real me. But, instead a version of me as seen by others. So busy being a daughter, student, grand daughter, wife, mother, employee, so many things to so many people. Not that I would change any of it, expect if I could I would be a more authentic ME. But perhaps that comes with only time and wisdom. Oh Spirit give me wisdom, cause time is ticking away.
(A work in progress in more ways than one)

Being alone does not make you free.

Four walls does not make you safe.

My heart says, we need someone to breath the air with,

To hold hands with, sitting beneath the stars.

My Soul says, we need someone to talk with, if only to whisper secrets in the night.

My mind says, we need someone to explore life with,

If only to learn of an other's dreams.

So don't seek the wrong freedom or the safety of a "box".

Be open to another seeker, be open to what could be.

Creator painting in pastels this day. Things have been slightly surreal these past days. I seek and get advice from several reliable sources. But, really they are just opinions of that source. And you know what they say about opinions.;-) This is me winking. Sooo in the final analysis, the decisions we all make have to be from our inner voice, that part of us that is a part of that Source that created this beautiful sky. Listen to the natural world which we are all part of. I don't just mean taking pictures, honoring the sun/moon rise and setting, doing all those that preserve and nourish the Earth that is important so important and needed. What I am saying is realize that the energy that is in me, the very cells is in every rock, tree, creature that lives on this Earth. We are truly all one. So I try to be grounded like the stone, give to the wind like the tree, and live in harmony with my fellow creatures.

Have been trying to slow down my thought process. So much whirling around in there getting jumbled. I joined a letter writing group, literally snail mail writing. Thought I needed to wean myself from instant gratification. So what happens, my Internet is down for 4 days. Talk about withdrawals. But it came back up this morning and the world is still revolving and I got a lot of hand work done. Even went out and had ceremony at the wheel.

The hawk/hawks having been having a hay day out toward the wheel. I even found a scraggly feather. This morning heard 2 different calls from 2 different hawks as they swooped through the trees and above. I know there are hawk experts out there that say for the most part hawks are solitary but for the last month I have seen and heard at least 3 almost daily. Of course the crows and squirrels are really upset about the whole thing.

Had other revelations as well. I talk from time to time about the grieving process. I have come to realize one thing-I have memories and history that needs to be remembered and honored. But that does not define who I am now. I just need to figure out who I am now.;-)

In My knowing, I am quiet.

In My soul, I am calm.

In My care, I am centered.

In the silence, my path way comes.

More rain last night YAY! Not going to look at rain gauge, just being thankful for what ever we get.
Only comment this morning is from TUT.
"Love always wins.
Kindness always prevails.
And smiles always disarm.
Touche', The Universe
And there can be as many winners as players, Life Rocks!"
TUT always makes me smile.